You are viewing [info]shadowsubstance's journal

Deep thoughts, every feeling and all the insanity [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
shadowsubstance

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

Links
[Links:| Complete Sean Bean Uptight Clothing Llama Song Sabine Ice-Sensei Gullet Balthazar ]

Halloween [Nov. 2nd, 2006Carpe noctem06:19 pm]
[Current Location |Aberystwyth, my room]
[Current Mood |amusedamused]
[Current Music |Bay-Radio]

Trick or treat everyone!
Don't have the time to blogg very much right now, but I'll leave you with some pictures from thuesdays Halloween party at the Union!

There's my Clockworks Orange guy!! Dedicated to you Jorunn! And Martin as well, I know he likes that movie, even though he told me the entire plot of the movie, and I know how it ends :P


WONDERBAUM! Do I need to say more?!


Edward Scissorhands, really original!


Me as an innocent fairy! *OM, who am I kidding, Devil in disguise!*


Stina, Sian, Annette and me!

See you later
Link2 comments|Leave a comment

Metacarpal-fetlock joint-1st phalanx-pastern joint-2nd phalanx-coffin joint-3rd phalanx [Oct. 31st, 2006Carpe noctem12:16 am]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Bedroom, infront of the PC]
[Current Mood |blankblank]
[Current Music |Sarah McLaughlin - Full of grace]

I HATE this! Damn this horrid report, damn it all to hell! Why do I keep postponing things!? Even though it went well last time, I don't think it will this time. Wish me the best of luck, 8 hours and 44 minutes till it's due, and then I'll have used 30 to get to uni. I'm fucked!!
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

I hate fire alarms! [Oct. 21st, 2006Carpe noctem05:41 pm]
[Current Location |Aberystwyth]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |I write sins not tragedies - Panic! At the Disco]

OMG! If that bloody firealarm goes off one more time this week, I might just snap, and go craaaazy! *not that I'm not a bit loco to start with* It have gone off 4 times this week, and that's not counting the usual testing of the fire alarms on Wednesdays, and five times yesterday it rang for 10 seconds and stopped, and we didn't have to go outside. But when it finally decided to go off properly yesterday, it was midnight, and me, Anmnette and Daniel were in the middle of LOTR Fellowship of the Ring! And off course, when the firealarm goes off for more than 20 sec, and someone actually set it off, everyone has to go outside, and wait there 'til the firebrigade comes, and they're not exactly Superman (who doesn't have muscles, but since he's Superman, he havent got an asshole or a "peehole" in his penis, and the muscles is just him being constopated, that's why he has a six pack *don't ask, no sleep and stresslevels through the roof caused by too much school work does things to you*)and it's wery often, or always, freezing at this time, and Aberystwyth isn't known for having small amounts of strong winds! (which I actually love, except during the firealarm, and too early in the morning)

Anyway, curse the firealarsm and the stupid persons setting it of, I think the firemen are
starting to hate us. Luckily we can find out who set it of by looking at a firesystemboxthingy in the entrance, and mock them.

I actually just got up, yes I know that it's almost six o'clock, but I'v been awake several times *one to throw a pidgeon out of my room* and just gone to sleep again. I love sleeping, and when you can do it, use the opertunity. The fact that I've turned my night and day rytmh upside-down doesn't bother me at all, it happened in Allèen 10 as well, just ask Jorunn, I am a night animal.

I am poored than a lfee these days. The fucking pound £ has risen so much in value, that the tuition fee and accommoation fee cost me 15 000 kroner more than expected, and everything I've used money on, is more than I calculated. I'm struggeling so much, I'm actually in minus! I need 5000 kr more to pay the first instalment of accommodation fee, and then money to survive 'til the new loan in late January start of Ferbruary. I have to get a job, and work the entire christmas at home to cover the accommodation fee in early January. But mum said she and dad would help me, and though I hate asking for money, especially like this, and this amount, she said everything would be alright. And I believe her, after a nice long sleep, I don't feel so hollow and lost anymore. I love my mum!

I'm talking to Jorunn now, god I miss her, we're having the sickest conversation, and I love it! This is what I've missed. We're talking about sex, disgusting things, inside jokes, laughing about good memories. She and Martin are coming down in December!!!! I'm so looking forward to it! 5 days of morbid fun!

Miyagi was supposed to come visit me, but got insulted because I didn't wan to sleep in the same bed as him! I mean, I just wouldn't feel comfortable about that, for many reasons. It's just me, and he should know that, especially when he claims to know me all that well, and if not, at least respect a friends wishes. I offered him my bed, and said I'd sleep at Annette's room for those nights. That means he would get a 120cm bedd all to him self, and me and Annette would share a 90cm bed. I think I gave him a great offer. And then he said thet I didn't appreciated him, because I chose to stay an other place when he came to visit me. When I'm sleeping god damn it! How social can you be asleep?! Unless you're thinking something else is gonna happen. I don't get him, and right now I'm just pissed. He logged off saying he's just visit his other friends in Wales. Suits me fine if he's gonna be like that. Jorunn and Martin are coming anyway, I'm happy, and mum anf dad.

I just have to mention that I constantly tease Matt, and it's so fun. I just have to spank my ass before he get's embarressed! And some days ago I followed him around the store, everywhere he went, dancing sensually infront of him. And I do it whenever I get the chance, and his biggest fear is to get a public erection! I don't do it so be mean, and he knows it, he's probably the best buddy I've got down here, can talk to him about everything. And I haven't got any boundaries, so we speak about whatever we want. And yesterday I told Annette how easy it was to tease him, and we walked infront of him touching each others asses, and making noises. It's so fun, and I touched Annette's breast, and he got so embarressed! It's so fun!!

But Now I gotta go, take a shower, and actually get dressed and stuff. Pictures will come guys, be patient!
Link3 comments|Leave a comment

Small update [Oct. 11th, 2006Carpe noctem06:26 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Aberystwyth]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |Eva Cassidy]

Hello again dearest readers!
I thought I should at least start to fill you in on my life down here, so here we go, from the beginning.
I did not get my en-suite room with a seaview, which you already may know, but a small tiny room overlooking scaffolds and a courtyeard. But the bonus is that I got a 120cm bed, and that's reeeeaally good!
I live in flat 24, vit 5 other people, Victor, a very quiet and sneaky guy from China, we never really notice him, he's just suddently there, and then not. Tom, a computer guy from England, who can fix everything on my computer, so almost like my ner Tor-Stefan and Tarjei. Then there's the infamous Ryan in room three, which I probably have to devote several etries to describe the complicated relationp we have, so an other time. Then there's Allison, a really nice girl from Newcastle, a bit special, but really friendly. Next to her is Ira, a very sweet girl, originally fron Moldovia. Everyone got on really good for the first day, and since we have the biggest and prettiest kitchen, we all gather in there at night, and have drinking games from Norway, and there's 7 chairs in the kitchen, so we call it Kitchen 24-7! Catchy right?
But no I have to write an assignment!
Laters
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

CONNECTION! [Oct. 5th, 2006Carpe noctem10:11 am]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |Stand by me - Timon&Pumbaa]

I have finally got internet connection, and I'm so happy that if I was a soap bubble I would burst!
I have to e-mail my friends, get that insurance and update my blogg...And yes, that damn phone!
See you soon, have a lesson!
Miss you all!
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

Last day [Sep. 19th, 2006Carpe noctem11:23 am]
[Current Location |Bergen *home*]
[Current Mood |rushedrushed]
[Current Music |Boondock Saints Soundtrack]

Well, so this is my last day at home, in Bergen, in Norway almost, if you don't count the fact that I have to drive through Norway for 10 hours tomorrow. At 05.00 am tomorrow I'm gone, forever, well, at least 'till christmas. But still, that's a looong time.
And I haven't even packed all my things, my clothes are still lying around, and I have some things down in the garage, and some linen in the laundry. And I have to pack an entire suitcase with things I'm gonna use the first few days, before I move into my room, 'cause I'm spending 2 days in a hotel. So I'm in kind of a hurry, because I have to pick up my dad at the airport at 09.30 pm tonight, and get the firm-car in town, drive back home and fill up the car, and everything have to be paked by then.
All my plants! OMG I almost forgot about them, how could I do that. If I don't bring them I'll die from carbondioxide poisoning! *running to get them* How the bloody hell do you pack plants....?! Ohh Damn, I forgot to take my allergy pills yesterday... Shit, I think I have Alzheimer light.
I have to remember to put my cd box in plain sight in the car, so I can get the ones I wanna listen to, get a shitload of coke for the ride, put post its on every box with the description of the content... Urrgh, it's so much to do, I'm overwhelmed! I'm gonna die!

I just made a plan yesterday, I've actually been thinking about it a bit, if I am very allergic towards hay, pollen and animals, and/or I don't like it in Wales/Aberystwyth, I'm gonna take the entry test to medicine in Brno, and join Sabine in her studies next year, maybe Stein-Erik will join too, he's planning to become a doctor too so... Time will show, but I'll give Wales a try. I've always dreamed of this, so I owe myself that, and my family.
Well well, back to packing!
LinkLeave a comment

(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2006Carpe noctem08:01 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Bergen *home*]
[Current Mood |surprisedsurprised]
[Current Music |Ooa hela natten]

In my last entry I said I was going to take a cup of coffee or something in town with Helene and Christine, but it didn't quite end up like that. I was stressing a lot, trying to pack and at the same time get ready to go, when my mum called me and said that my aunt had forgotten some things at my grandmothers place, and if Christine and me could come up and get them, since we were going to town anyway. (my aunt lives there) I was stressed and just said "Yes I'll ask, but I'm not driving, and we're in a hurry" I actually didn't intend to ask anyway, just say that Christine didn't want to. But I'm a nice girl and I asked, and Christine said yes right away. We drove over there, and I saw my aunt there, and got kinda pissed, why had we come all that way, if she was still there. So we went inside the house to talk to my mother, and she asked me to come upstairs. I saw some balloons in the ceiling, and chips and dip on the tables, but I was so stressed and pissed that I didn't care, I asked her what shoes to wear (I'd brought two pairs* and she told me to go outside to ask my aunt on the porch, and when I stepped outside, everyone was there. My aunts Bella, Ida-Helene, my uncles Stein, Rikken, and my friends, Jøran, Helene and Jorunn. My cousin Isabel was also there, and my sister Stephanie. I was shocked, I couldn't speak, and people came to hug me.
There were pizza, candy, sodas and lots of liqour. And later my friend Linn came, Ove, Christines boyfriend, and my dad, my other uncle Kjetil and their friend Petter. We drank, and I persuaded both Christine and Helene to drink and stay, and everybody got some booze. A lot of joking around and talking, about new gossip and old memories, and since this was a party where both my friends AND my family attended, there were some child stories about me, and exchanging of rumours and gossip.

I tried to censure my family, because mixed with alcohol and my friends, this was bound to go to hell, they're special enough without the alcohol, and all of them being concentrated at a small area. It was ok, I'm not really embarrassed about them, but I'm used to my mother always being in charge and having control, so when she got drunk, that image kinda vaporized. Helene disappeared, and I found her in her car, talking to her loverboy, and I scared the living daylight out of her. Then my dad found out that she was down there, and came with a big flashlight, and scared her even more.... But later Helene got really sick, and I sat with her for some hours, and Christine joined me. She even passed out, and scared me a bit, said some hurting stuff and fell asleep at last.
But we talked to her the next morning, and I met her in town later that day for a "glass of orgasm" *The worlds best ice coffee mocca* and we've talked it over, she was drunk and was speaking gibberish, and no harm's done.
I spent the afternoon with her yesterday, and stayed and talked way into the night. Just sat there, smoking and hugging each other.

It's so sad, only three days left here in Bergen, and I already miss it, even though I haven't left it. Because now I see all the things I want to do before I leave, and I know that I haven't got the time to do them all, not even half of them. I want to go mushroom hunting with a dagger, I want to join the cottage parties that's taking place the two next weekends, see the autumn colours, first snow, visit Ice-Sensei in Tønsberg, just everything!

But now I have to go, I'm meeting Christine and I'm getting a present *woohooo!* Later
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

Packing [Sep. 15th, 2006Carpe noctem05:45 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood |creativecreative]
[Current Music |The Clash - London Calling]

I've started to pack my stuff, finally. I only started because my mum wouldn't give me a moments peace about it, but I guess it was about time. Only 5 days left, and I have to bring with me an entire life, I wont see home before christmas times. And a life doesn't fit into boxes, I can vote on that one. But I feel like I'm starting to get a system and things get done. So I think it'll be alright. Went up to Stend today, my old high school, meet the teachers and my cousin who started there in august. I've really missed that place, so when me ad Christine walked around we talked about old memories, first time we met and stuff like that, it was so great. She also helped me get a bit lightened up about leaving. Because first I got the "do you really think you can handle the pressure"-speach from our old teacher Magnus, so I really started to think about how hard and stressing it would be, and then it was good to have someone there to tell you they believe in you, and be proud of what you've achieved. I bet my family is too, but they're not that good in expressing it I guess.
I've been to IKEA and bought a load of kitchen supplies, and just some small things to decorate my room with, althoug I probably have quite enough. So I'm packing down what I'll be needing over there, and getting all sorts of ideas of how to decorate my room. Which colours I want, style, pictures and so on. I love it, though, to create a dream room of luxury with only a small amount of money isn't an easy task. But I'm staying there for three years, 7 in the UK, so by that time I've probably gotten my own appartment maybe, at least enough stuff to fill one. Just collect piece by piece, and as you grow up your taste changes. Maybe like this?? :P


No I don't really think of my self as a grown up, even though I'm almost 20, but not a child either. *I'm not a girl, not yet a woman!!!* *memo: kill Britney* I discovered that two days ago, when a little girl came up to me while I was sitting outside, and asked me all these silly questions, as kids always do, and when I lit a cigarette she looked at me for a while and said "Are you an adult?" I thought about it for a second and said "Yes". Maybe I did it because it would be more acceptable for a child to see adults smoking, or because I felt grown up compared to her or the fact that I'm leaving and paying (almost) all of my bills by my self. But after reconcideration I thought. "NO! I'm not grown up, and never expect me to be either. Live life and make mistakes." But I have to say, that's one of the smartest selfinsight questions I've ever gotten from a kid.

Anyway, now I have to go an pack some more before Christine comes and pickes me up, going to town for a coffee or something with Helene. Tata!
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

Tatatatest [Sep. 13th, 2006Carpe noctem01:35 am]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |My bed in Bergen]
[Current Mood |melancholymelancholy]
[Current Music |Colin Hay - Overkill (Scrubs)]

If you comment on this post:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If you participate, you must post this on your LJ (unless you've already posted this that is, no need in making the same thing over and over, right?)

I can also write something here too I guess... I felt a bit stood up today, had an appointment with Helene today, and I couldn't reach her in any way, and one hour passed, two, three, four... I was luckily at home, not like being left at a cafe or anything. So I started getting a bitt pissed off, and then just sad, 'cause there's been such a long time since I've seen her. She drove me home from town one day, but since I've hung out with her, and really got to talk, because she's been missing out on the girl nights and the social gatherings in town and such. So I was relly looking forward to seeing her again. But she called me, had been some kind of crisis at work, and she'd have to work late, so it's alright. I'd wished she'd called sooner, but it's ok, I understand that she was busy. It's just that I don't have much time left here in Bergen, and I'm pretty full booked this last week here, and she's budy, and I have to pack and prepare and all that. It's just frustrating and sad, and there's too much happening at the same time for me to cope with. Wish I could press the "pause button" and take a step back, enjoying things as they are right now.
Stand on some mountain top, with the wind on your face, the autumn sunset in front of you and all the warm colours of earth and fire lighting up the trees around you. Wind playing with your hair, fresh smell of nature, leaves swirling in the air, a basket full of mushrooms and the autumn weather threatening to get a bit stormy, so you should get inside and light candles and get under a blanket with a cup of something hot, and eat some fresh mushrooms. Ahh, I love the autumn, my favourite season.

They don't even have mountains there, there's small hills... Pretend mountains... But I'll live, I'll get used to it. It's just so much to adjust to right away. I liked the autumn pics, I'll put in some more, they lift my mood, hopefully they'll do the same for others. Good night people...

Link4 comments|Leave a comment

One last weekend [Sep. 12th, 2006Carpe noctem01:39 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |Bergen *home*]
[Current Mood |scaredbut hyper]
[Current Music |Sarah Brightman - Memories/ I like to move it]

Oh dear, yesterday, while sitting with friends at a cafè talking and plannign parties in the weekends, I realiced that this weekend coming up, is my last weekend in Bergen for a very long time. And they planned parties for the weekends when I'm not here. Off course I don't want them to put their lives on hold while I'm gone, and do nothing because of the simple reason that I'm not here. I am the one leaving them, I know that. What I'm afraid of is that when they party/live on, I'll be easily forgotten.
*OMG, my dad just got out of bed, yes at this hour, and put on DDE - Her blir det liv at highest possibly volum and danced around in his boxer, singing bouncing and yelling. Damn that man is crazy, but so am I so I joined him in the bouncing and this is what I'm gonna miss*
But the point is that I'm afraid that they wont miss me, and just kind of forget me with all the new memories overwhelming them. I mean, Stein-Erik is gonna be a "russ" this year (I'll explain that nome other time with pictures)That is a great experience, and I wont even be here, not even for 16th and 17th of May! (Norway's national day and the get-shitfaced-the-day-before-day for those who didn't know). That there wont be a difference in partying with or without me (hearing U2 - With or without you in my head) and it'll just be the same and no one will care. Damn it's hard to be depressive, especially when I'm a bit hyper, have coke and I'm talking to Ice-Sensei in Norwenglish, ænd vi ar nått kvait rait inn de hædd *I like to move it, move it playing in the background, me go kræjsi!* Now I have infected Tarjei with Norwenglish too, I think he thinks I'm a bit crazy, but he should KNOW that after 9 months of me and Jorunn.
But now I'm gonna find a better picture for my LJ background, and I can't sit still, I'm listening to I like to move it, so I gotta move it move it!
Link1 comment|Leave a comment

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]